A pleasure to watch an artist following Rilke’s advice: taking his well-disciplined strengths and stretching them between two opposing poles, “because inside human beings is where God grows.” And not only inside human beings—as is evident here—but also in the hearts of our animal friends.
On the 1st anniversary of the loss of his cherished friend Bu, Duff lets his soul pour out. The emotions that were once hidden are now exposed for all to hear. And when you do hear, you find yourself in a parallel path with the emotional journey that we all will deal with at one time or another as our duties as a creature of thought.
An outstanding new step in the musings of this ambient musician.
Favorite track: afflictio animae.
In a couple days it will have been a year since we said goodbye to my dog Bu and when I reflect back, it was the most difficult and inspiring stretch of my life.
The book that really helped me navigate this was Answer to Job by Carl Jung. I started it with some bizarre expectation of finding justification for the darkness and sadness within me but in a wonderful surprise it had quite the opposite effect.
While recording this project and reading Answer to Job, I had what was perhaps my most important "Big Dream". I was on a summit of a small hill, on an outstretched ledge with a group of other people I didn't know but was not afraid of. We were all looking out across this unending vista in silence, and I had the feeling of mutual relatedness in seeking the answers to our individual questions.
In front of us, was an un-passable river, separating us from a beautiful stretch of earth that on one side had an alien landscape of impossibly perfect crystalline mountains of cold stillness; diametrically opposing it was a lush, green, vibrant rainforest that seemed to radiate life, chaos, complexity and warmth.
In the center was a red-rock structure naturally and elegantly demarcated. It was smaller in size than the environments surrounding it but towered into the vastness of the sky with an inescapable aura of timelessness and connection to the eternal. Directly beyond it was a comforting numinous sun, illuminating the red-rock tower like a temple. Everyone sharing this view with me, on a humble mound of plain dirt, wanted to reach this structure and we didn't have to say anything to each other in order to understand.
I'll never forget that dream and try to remind myself of it often.
Recorded, arranged, mixed and mastered by Duff Egan
Samples used from Quiet Planet
Graphic Design by Brian Bourassa
Photo by Duff Egan
all recordings made with a DSI Prophet 12
"Individuals encounter similar events in their lives when they feel that everything they have had faith in has been thrown into question. What happens in such a case is that the individuals in their anguish and inability to accept the catastrophe ask again and again the question, "Why did this happen to me? Why did God permit this terrible thing to happen?" -- this accident, this illness, this loss of a loved one -- this catastrophe, whatever it is.
There are five possible answers to that question. One of them is "God has punished me for my sins." If you are aware of your sins and accept the event as punishment, then that satisfies you, that's your meaning. That's the "Jeremiah reaction." That's what Jeremiah told Israel: the reason this happened to you is that you're being punished for your sins.
Another possible reaction is that "I'm the victim of Satan, the Evil one, who is responsible." That's the dualistic or Manichean reaction, it sees the world as engaged in a conflict between two different deities: the Good and the Evil.
The third possibility is that "This catastrophe is actually good for me in some higher way I can't understand." I call that the Apostle Paul reaction. He said, "All things work together for good to them that love God" -- if you can see far enough. It usually takes some faith to assume that one.
The fourth possibility is that the suffering is caused by chance, because there is no transpersonal agency in human affairs. "God doesn't exist, or if he does exist he doesn't concern himself with man." That's the secular reaction. It doesn't offer much comfort but if you believe it you can harden yourself and adopt a stoic attitude.
The fifth possibility is the one Jung has discovered, namely, "God is an antinomy who isn't quite conscious of what he is doing." That's the Job reaction, Job who knows that his redeemer lives and who says to God, "Though you kill me, yet will I trust in you." Job also realizes that by having that awareness about God he is contributing to God's transformation.
That's the Job reaction and it's one that never existed before in human thought until Jung interpreted it in that way."
Edward F. Edinger
Transformation of the God-Image - An Elucidation of Jung's Answer to Job 570